I Was Convicted and Sentenced to Death on a Saturday

In the past 5 weeks, I was tried, had my name smeared in the media as a violent thug and this past Saturday, I was convicted of my crime and sentenced to death as many of the news outlets (mostly right-wing) praised it as a triumph of our justice system. Ann Coulter even took some time out from worshipping satan and eating oats in her stable to tweet "Hallelujah" My crime: LOOKING as if I was about to do something.

Now of course, I'm being just a tad bit on the dramatic side, but not by much. This past Saturday, the jury in the George Zimmerman case(the "White Hispanic" turned Stay Puft Marshmallow man who killed 17-year old Trayvon Martin in February of last year)found George not guilty of his crime. Now aside from the fact of being pissed saturday night, it showed me just how much I'm worth to some people. I learned what it feels like to be a problem in America.

Now many on the right wing will tell you that this was a case of self defense. Trayvon and George got into an altercation and once George began losing the fight, he shot in fear for his own life....If they're nice. But the bottom line of it is, if Zimmerman would've stayed in his car AS HE WAS TOLD TO DO, this wouldn't have happened. But as Zimmerman has said in his 911 phone calls, "He looked dangerous" one of the stigmas that many African American men have had to deal with. And before you say "race has nothing to do with this case" and "There you go, playing the race card/race baiting like all you liberals do." First, its a free country. I can say what I please. You don't like it, there's a little red button on the top right(or left for my Mac folks) that'll solve all your problems. Second, ever notice the people who have a tendency to say that the case isn't about race are usually white men? Let's be honest, I would find it wrong and horrible if a 28 yr old black man stalked and killed a 17 yr old white child because a child is dead and the parents have to deal with something NO PARENT SHOULD. But the fact of the matter is, George Zimmerman profiled this kid and thought of him as guilty the moment he stepped outta that car.

***WARNING!! TALK OF RACE!!! MORONS, YOU STILL HAVE TIME TO CLOSE THE WINDOW!***

Thanks for staying with us! Now, if you're curious, I am a young black man in America and this verdict only solidified what had remained in the back of my mind for most of my life. People are inherently afraid of me, not for what I've done, but for who I am. This disgusting practice of racial profiling has become a part of our regular lives. Every black man that I know has a "Boogeyman" story, myself included. For many, its being pulled over and harassed on the suspicion that we've done something wrong, stopped and frisked on the streets, a quick clutch of the purse or lock of the car door, or followed around the store cause ppl "just know" that you're going to steal. For me, it was an indignant man who accused me of stealing laptops when I was in line for a cookie. Most of us have learned the tricks of the trade to survive: "don't talk too loud" "keep your hands out of your pockets" "No sudden movements." For many of us, the only crime we have ever committed was being a black man and many times that crime is punishable by death. Trayvon's name is added to the long list of young black men whose lives were cut short. Men like Oscar Grant, Sean Bell, and Amadou Diallo and countless others who never lived up to the full potential of their lives because they were cut down by implicit racism and unwarranted suspicion. This verdict was not just one man who killed a child getting off, it is a bold message to Florida and the rest of the country: "It's okay to kill a young black man, he was a thug and was probably guilty of something anyway."

What also hurts is the consistent dehumanizing of this 17 year old by many members of the media. The discovery of text messages that allegedly stated that he "liked to fight." The reports of trace amounts of marijuana in his system(cause weed makes you SOOO violent,) his pictures which show him with gold teeth all added to the idea that he was a dangerous, violent thug and that he provoked his own death. What infuriated me was the comments that George's brother Robert made on Piers Morgan shortly after the verdict:

"I want to know what makes people angry enough to attack someone the way Trayvon Martin did. I want to know if it is true, and I don't know if it's true, that Trayvon Martin was looking to procure firearms, was growing dru.. marijuana plants or was making 'lean' or whatever he was doing. I want to know that every minor, high schooler that would be reaching out in some way for help and they may feel it's by procuring firearms or whatever it is they may be doing, that they have some kind of help."

First off, how bout a big deep fried fuck you, Bobby. If there was any question that the Zimmerman's were racists from George, Robert's stupid ass decided to earn his place in the hated box right next to his brother. First off, what the hell is with people nowadays who say BLATANT LIES on television and pass it off as fact. It's like a daily damn occurrence! Secondly, you are callously speaking lying about a child who is dead. A CHILD THAT YOUR BROTHER KILLED! To rub salt in the wound of a grieving family like that is just evil. But it may get you a show on Fox News.

In his book, The Souls of Black Folk, W.E.B. DuBois wrote,

“Between me and the other world there is ever an unasked question: unasked by some through feelings of delicacy; by others through the difficulty of rightly framing it. All, nevertheless, flutter round it. How does it feel to be a problem?”


Melissa Harris Perry highlighted this on this past Sunday's program:

"DuBois was pointing to something different. Not just having problems, but being a problem. How does it feel to be a problem? To have your very body and the bodies of your children to be assume to be criminal, violent, malignant.


How does it feel to be trapped on the roof of your home as the flood waters rise and be called a refugee?


How does it feel to wear the symbol of your faith and be assumed to be a terrorist threat to your own nation?


How does it feel to have the president who looks like you demanded to produce proof of his citizenship?


How does it feel to know that when you speak the language of your parents, you will be assumed to be illegal?


How does it feel to know that if you marry the person you love, some will say you are destroying the very fabric of the nation?


How does it feel to fear sending your son to the 7-Eleven for a bag of Skittles on a rainy night?"

As we go about our days, I have heard many people say "What do I tell my children?" I have often been burdened with that myself as I am a target whenever I walk out my door or get behind the wheel of a car. So I say this, tell them to be careful. Tell them to stand proud and tall and know that they are not what the world thinks of them. Tell them to pray that people will open their minds and know that danger doesn't always come with a black face. And most importantly, tell them that one day, they will grow into a person that can help change minds so that another will not have to perish at the hands of ignorance, be it a Subway station in Oakland or a gated community in Sanford.


Rest In Peace, Trayvon. And too many others.

Thanx 4 lettin me vent,


Lawrence J. Weber, Jr.


"The Arrogant Observer"